Thursday, January 29, 2015

Barielle Gray Sky, Heaven Sent, Under The Sea

While I was in New York, I was loving the snow and the cold.  It was -20F several nights in a row. We were laughing at how 10F was a heat wave! I'm one who loves the cold and the snow, things I don't get living in Virginia.

When I got home the other day, it was so hard being around pictures of my dad and seeing all the furniture that he made for me.  I had so many ideas for more things I wanted him to make me.  I see the light fixture we were going to install on my back porch.  The leaky faucet I wanted him to watch me change the washer to make sure I do it right.

I wonder if I was a good daughter, whether I spent enough time with him, whether he knew how much I love him.  I didn't get to have a 'death bed conversation' as it were. My brother and mom did in the hospital when my dad was more alert.  I wonder if I had that, would I feel less guilty. I wish we knew before it was too late how sick he was so maybe we could have got him different medical care. I know you can't do the what ifs, but boy am I.

I can't stop picturing him in the casket.  I can't stop crying.  I hope my mom is doing ok.  She is keeping busy and says she has her moments.  It's been a little over a week since he passed away.  I wish I had more time.

Isn't that what we all want and figure out when it's too late?

When I got home, I had gotten my Spring Barielle collection.  I thought I'd play with those colors first.

Here is your silly bottle shot.


This is Barielle Heaven Sent, Gray Sky and Under The Sea.  These lean more teal IRL.

I started with a full mani with Gray Sky.  It's a gorgeous pearly shimmer.

Flash

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I've gone from having no gray polish to now owning almost ten! All because of that book 50 Shades of Grey!

Next I simply did a tape mani.

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How gorgeous is this?  Simple, yet so awesome!

I can't wait to play with the rest of the set!

Until next time people.  Any thoughts out there?


Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Enchanted Polish November 2014, Polish My Life Storm Clouds

Oh people.  I just went back and read my last post from the 15th.  So much has happened since that posted.

This is going to be a very difficult post for me.

When that posted, I was already at my parent's house in New York watching my beautiful dad die.  I had mentioned that the plan was for me to drive up there on that Thursday.  What actually took place, was mom calling me Monday the 12th at work telling me to get home as fast as I can.  This is a phone call I never wanted to receive. I left work at 10:30, drove to my house, packed like a mad woman, threw my cats in the car and literally drove 80 mph for 9 hours to get home.

The drive was awful.  First, you're worried whether you will get home in time.  There was dense fog in Pennsylvania, then snow, sleet and freezing rain followed by heavy snow close to my parent's house.  I didn't slow down until the last hour when the roads really were scary slippery.  My poor cats were freaking the whole time.  I got there at 9:30 pm.

For the next three days, there were tons of family and friends around my dad's hospital bed basically saying good bye.  I didn't know he was truly that sick.  No one did.  There are so many things I feel guilty about.  I'll get to those in future posts.

Being a nurse, I saw the signs that he was failing.  I took care of him as best I could.  I kept him comfortable with medicines as we had promised him we would do for him.

Then on 1/16/15 at 01:55 am, my dad passed away.  It isn't fair.  He was only 70-he should have had more years to live.  My mom and he have been together almost 50 years.  Seeing him lying there lifeless is something I never ever want to see again.

Then we had to make the funeral arrangements, calling hours, pick out the casket etc. It's too much after losing someone you love so much.  I've never been to a funeral ever.  Standing there next to your father in a coffin while people flow by saying their goodbyes and giving condolences is just too much to go through.  It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

I was at my parent's house for two weeks, helping mom with these arrangements, going through dad's stuff and just being there for her.  Tomorrow when you read this post will be my first day back to work.  I hope I do ok.

I'll talk more about this in the next couple of posts.  Please feel free to skip to the pretties.  I have to get this out.

Here is your silly bottle shot.


This is Enchanted Polish November 2014 and Polish My Life Storm Clouds.

I started with skittles.

Indoor Sun

Indoor Sun
How gorgeous are these together? I next used tape and dots totally inspired by a mani I saw on @glittr on Instagram, but added my own spin to it.  I love how it came out.

Indoor Sun

Indoor Sun
Isn't this awesome? I didn't do my nails for a long time after this.  I did a couple manis for my dad's funeral-same design as here, but NY Giants colors for him.  Nothing I will be posting here.

Until next time people.  Any thoughts out there?


Thursday, January 15, 2015

Enchanted Polish July 2013, Britney Spearmint and Green Goblin

Yes it's a green day and it was a full on sun day, so I had to wear holos.

I've bought two new cat carriers for my trip home to spend time with my dad.  I've left them out on the floor in the kitchen, sprayed with that Feliway pheromone stuff so they get used to it.  The day this posts, I will be on the road, unless I've left the day before.  It's all up in the air depending on how my dad is doing.  My plan is to drive up there Thursday, but more and more, I'm leaning toward Wednesday.  It's all day to day right now.

They are still working on different medicines to at least get him comfortable, so far he's really not. He's supposed to be released and driven the three hours home by ambulance tomorrow.  At that time, the local doctor will takeover doing his medicines.

I can't really talk about this anymore right this second as my eyes are tearing up as I think about losing the one father I will ever have in this life.  I've been thinking about stuff from the past, but he's still here right now and I don't want to be thinking like that right now.

I apologize to you my readers.  Please bear with me as I go through one of life's most painful realities.

Here is your silly bottle shot.


This is Enchanted Polish July 2013, Green Goblin and Britney Spearmint.

I started with skittles.

Indoor Sun

Indoor Sun
So freakin gorgeous!  Next I did a simple tape mani then added some dots.

Indoor Sun

Indoor Sun
How awesome is this? Sadly, you can't really see the lighter dots too well from all the bling, but yeah it's a gorgeous mani for sure!

Until next time people.  Any thoughts out there?


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