To be honest, I have not been in a good place. Next weekend is the anniversary of my dad's death. I am no closer to being ok than I was this time last year. It still feels like yesterday to me. Christmas was hard without him there. I drove to New York to be with my mom and my brother's family. It was crazy warm and no snow, which for that area of New York is unheard of. It was strange indeed.
I visited his grave alone and with mom while I was there. Christmas day dinner was at his sister's house like it has been as long as I can remember. The hardest part was sitting at that table, surrounded by his sisters who are all older than he was and not see him at the head of the table. I almost had to get up to walk away. Instead, I just stared at my plate of food.
I haven't felt like doing anything. I haven't blogged, I haven't done my nails and I have been wondering if it's time to just end this blog. These are the thoughts in my head.
What I did want to share with you for this post are two things. One is something that I've never seen on Christmas Eve ever.
Yup, that's two Santas on the golf course behind my brother's house on Christmas Eve. Now normally there is a ton of snow and it's cold as sh*t that time of year. I was totally looking forward to seeing the snow and was denied!
I was actually doing my niece's nails when we looked out the window and saw this. She picked out the colors and the stamp designs. Some of you will remember I always show you her creations.
If you look closely, one hand is snowflakes, the other is Santa and his reindeer. I used China Glaze Ruby Pumps and Emerald Sparkle. Two classics I only pull out at Christmas time. The stamps are from MoYou London and my Mundo de Unos White.
I just want to say that I do apologize to my readers who are frustrated or whatever feelings you may have since I changed some of my content here and for this big gap of time without posting. I hope this post explains some of the why and I'll be doing more posts even if I need to make myself so I can get back in the swing.
Until next time people. Any thoughts out there?