So for all those who want to know. I finally had my meeting (yearly evaluation) with my boss. It did not go well. Every year I've been there so far I always got the exceeds rating. No one ever gets the top one which is excellent-you'd have to be super nurse for that. This year the new boss gave me simply the fully meets one. Let's just say this hurts and it hurts bad. I looked at her and said I feel like I just got slapped in the face. That I bust my ass all year long and once a year I look for a slap on the back and a good job with my exceeds rating.
Why didn't I get it this year?
Well let's just discuss what was said. I'm fabulous at what I do, that not one patient has ever complained about me, gotten lost etc and I get a lot of work done.
However, I don't attend staff meetings (very few of the staff actually do) and I don't attend the morning rounds. I looked at her and said I could care less about staff meetings. I'm here to take care of my patients and I do a good job of that. I said I don't have the time to go to the morning rounds or staff meetings. You have given me so much work to do that I have no time to do anything else.
Her reply? Well then maybe we need to take some of that work away. Staff meetings are important. There are new staff that don't even know who you are blah blah blah. She also said that some people have complained that I am difficult to talk to. Here we go again. Remember I told you I had made up with that coworker and now it's on my eval?
Yes by this time I'm crying. I said I've not had a good year, my dad passed away, I made up with that coworker and I don't agree that I should only get a fully meets rating. She was undeterred. Seems she had a peer do an eval on me as well and this person obviously has no idea what I do and made detrimental remarks about me as well.
Basically it was a sh*tfest and I was the target. Since when is a f*cking staff meeting more important that taking care of your cancer patients? Do I want to be a part of that kind of mentality?
For the first time since I started working there, I really am thinking about quitting and finding something else. I refuse to bust my ass and not be appreciated. I refuse to have someone look me in the eye every other day of the year and tell me how fabulous I am and what a great job I do to turn around and stab me in the back on the day that matters. Believe that I have been going through the pros and cons in my head since that day.
I texted one of the doctors I work with to say I feel unappreciated and not sure I want to stay anymore and he replied screw her, we love you etc. But he's one doctor once a week and I'm just not sure it's enough anymore. I do plan on talking to one of the very high ups when I see her next to ask her to keep an eye open for other opportunities for me. Or maybe it's time for me to move home and hang out with mom and the rest of my family.
How do you know when it's time to move on? I used to love what I do and now I'm not so sure.
To be continued................................
Now here are two very new and very gorgeous Enchanted Polish. First up is Monster Ink. I see this as a purple, but I know it also looks pink.
Next is Reign Beau. Another subtle stunning holo.
Until next time people. Any thoughts out there?